a call from her..

she called me today....
the eye of the jasmine...

i was caught off guard...
i couldnt believe it was her....

should i be happy???
i dont know..
should i be sad???
i dont know..

but i do know it was good to hear her voice...
after such a long time...

how she talked...
god..
how she talked...
as if nothing ever happened between us...
heh...
but then again...
she did said that she never loved me anyway...
its just sympathy...
pure sympathy...

i couldnt even speak properly....
all my voice..
stuck in my throat...

i dont know...
i really dont know....
what she was trying to do...
putting me down on what i am trying to do...
it hurts, u know...
it hurts a lot...
when someone so dear to you...
act as if nothing happened...
not to mention putting u down...

hehe...
whatever...
doesnt matter..
for all the things that she has put me through...

she is still the queen of my heart..

and sometimes...
i just hate myself for feeling that way.....

bloody hell..
giving away your luv...
to someone that never loved u....

that really hurts...
really...
god damned...
hurts...