just another day

i m spectacularly tired now..
i have not felt tired like this for a long...
long...
time...

but then again....
however busy...
or tired...
i may be....
memories of her still creeps up to the back of my head....

hehe...
some things make me smile..
some things hurt me a lot...
so much so...
that sometimes...
i wish i could just pick n choose...
which memories to keep...
and which to erase...
all at the tip of a button...

unfortunately...
the world does not work that way...
hehe...
even though its killing me inside...
i guess i'll just have to face it...
right??
no use running...
no...
that wont work with me...
cuz i learned earlier on in life...
that running from a problem...
or being dishonest about yourself...
will only bring u more trouble..

heh...
its especially hard to deny something that u feel in your heart...
no matter what u do...
there is no running away from it....
...
she is still the queen of my heart...

so i guess it will be this way for quite some time...
quiet n lonely...
longing for her...
heh...
i m trying my best to take it all in my stride...
but for now...
it seems that the best antidote...
would be a bottle away...

woman....
they can make u...
they can break u...
they can play u...
they can fool u...
they can make u cry...
and yet....
after taking all that...
and then some...

u still luv them with all your heart....

oh well..
i guess its just another day...
in my life...
without her..